LAURA PAULEUS

 

Black & Proud

I am but a black girl, my skin may be dark
But I still am only a girl
Why am I shun for the color of my skin
For the fact I’m a women
Why am I labeled as ratchet or easy
Why do people think I’m not smart I only wish to live and be free from these shackles
I wish it find love but I can not 

In a world where I am hated for my skin
A world where they copy my style but won’t show me love
Love and admiration is something that is far from my grasp
But I do wish to ask you this
Why do you steal and why do you hate?
I’ve worked for my creation and was born with this ideal
What have I done to make you wanna steal and disregard my pain
You steal from my culture as well as my features 

You say you appreciate what we provide
But then go and call it your own
You think I’m stupid but I’m not I know you don’t like me and neither do the men
But what have I done but exist
When all I want is to feel and be treated like a human being
I am human after all but to you I’m far from it
You use my words against me and don’t see the abusive you’ve caused 

Taking away the way we speak and making money off it
Taking away our voice as you try to act like an ally
How can you be an ally when you take and lie
Want to be in the front without knowing your flaws
You change the meanings of our culture
The moment you say it or wear it people compliment you
But for us we get called ghetto, ratchet, etc
How can you say you created something
So you just gonna ignore us as if we’re nothing? 

But in a world where we cry and scream for diversity
Can we really be appreciated
You take and change the meaning as you dress in it 
And say this is the diversity you’ll get It’s always the same girls with the same skin tone
Try going a bit dark not like it would kill you
And maybe find someone from said culture than rather your own
If you plan to use it then use it right 

Why is it an issue when we’re confident in ourselves
Why can’t we be happy in our sexuality
Why can’t we talk about sexual things but you can
You sing and rap about touching a women without consent
Yet the moment we do it, it’s a problem
Stop using us as an excuse for being a shitty father
Your the reason this stereotype lives on
But I don’t think your ready for that talk
Nor are you ready to see us be confident 

Now to all the boys that called us ugly before
How does it feel being a clown for trying to put your own women down
You say we’re jealous when you date lightskins or whites
But you do realize we don’t care unless you want to involve us
Or unless they trying to appropriate my culture
Although there’s a double standard since we can’t date anything but black
You sure you're not the one with insecurities
I rather be appreciated then hated all my life 

It also seems you can’t help when we do better than you
Always try to humble us and lie to make yourself feel better
What’s wrong love, can’t have a black women be better than you
Is that why you ignore our pain and laugh at our misfortune
Walk it off you say when she got shot and is traumatized
But you don’t care I’m sure if it was the male you’d be yelling and screaming
Why do you feel the need to do such things
Why can't a black woman be vulnerable? 

Then again you think my culture and vulnerability is a joke
You forgive those that have wronged me
Even the men see us as jokes but I’m sure you like that
But then again I am not the only one you steal from
You wear our cultures like a costume
You disrespect us by saying we’re overreacting
You tell us to calm down, that it’s not that deep
My culture is who I am, what I create is who I am 
So why steal?
Oh is it because you don’t have one of your own
So you make us hate our skin and body
I can’t wear my hair natural or in protective styles
But for you it’s ok?
Well guess what I love myself
So keep us outta your mouths
We’re black girls and we’re proud to be black
After all black is beautiful 

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Laura Pauleus

Laura Pauleus is 16 at the moment and lives in Brooklyn, New York with my family. She is going to be a junior at victory collegiate high school. This is actually the first time her work will be published so she is actually pretty excited about that. Laura is a pretty quiet person but takes interest in a lot of things.